Bananasarethebest

While reading this post, you might as well listen to this song I’m listening to.

I’m way too romantic for my age. Sometimes I wonder why I’m so romantic yet at the same time have so high expectations on love. Come to think of it, I’m a purist in love and life. 

Purist, yet romantic. Sigh. 

As you all don’t know, I’m single on purpose(or circumstance, it doesn’t matter). It stings to be single when you are surrounded by an environment that both promotes love and unfaithfulness. Watching movies moves me in an emotional twirl(mababaw luha ko). Especially when I witness true to life movies wherein the hero and heroine has to be separated for a very long time, yet in the end still find their paths to be intertwined with each other. 

Honestly, I want that to happen in my life. Or so I secretly wish. I just want all the hurts and suffering I have been through for love to be justified. Like, it was for a reason for me to learn and to be strong and ready for my most awaited time with him. I want him to know that I have walked this life waiting for him, and that I have looked forward to that day that he will be with me. That my eagerness surpassed all loneliness and anxiety. I want to look at his eyes, feel the comfort of his warmth. Just to live life with him.

But right now, I’m too hurt and too bruised. I’ve had too much experience on love. I’ve been calloused, and sometimes I wish I didn’t have all those memories to go with me. I know too much and I’m too cautious. I don’t want to get hurt anymore! So I ask, will I still have a prince with me by the end?

Yet I am reminded, by the end, I DO HAVE A PRINCE WAITING FOR ME! And he loves me with an everlasting love. He has never left me for someone else, and he loved me even on times that I was unfaithful to him. At the end, he loves me, and I am his. Most importantly, it will be him who has justified me! He justified everything about me, and he did it for me because he loves me. Everything in my past will be healed, and nothing will matter except him. He is worthy of it all.

This is the only comfort I have, that at the end of the day, I am His. Yet more strikingly, He is also mine. There, I have completeness. And today I dare say, I am complete in Him.

Alam ko ang sagot. :)

May nabasa ako dati about happiness(actually, joy). Sabi duon, mahirap daw maging masaya kung wala kang…. HOPE. 

Tama nga naman.

Kung araw araw feeling mo wala nang magbabago sa buhay mo, na di na maaayos ang pamilya mo, na di na kayo magiging magaling na estudyante, or hindi na kayo magsstand-out sa batch niyo.. mahirap nga maging masaya. 

Sa world daw na ito, change lang ang constant. Pero bakit parang yung situation natin, forever? Wagas kung magparamdam na di na mauubos ang problema sa life. Nakakadrain talaga ng hope… at happiness/joy.

Kaya nga thankful ako kasi kahit na sobrang labo at hostile ng world na ito, I can wake up everyday knowing that kahit gaano karaming problema ang ibato saakin, magiging masaya ang araw ko.

Bakit?

Kasi si God mismo ang hope na pwede kong pang-hawakan:) Malaki nga problema ko, MAS malaki naman ang Diyos ko! Talong talo yang problema ko. Though minsan nakakalimutan ko(aminin natin), buti nalang lagi niya tayong nireremind! 

The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still -Exodus 14:14

Ayun! Naremind din tayo na hindi natin kailangan mag-worry at ma-depress sa mga bagay na yan kasi God will show us how powerful He is over every trial that we have; we need only to be still and wait for Him. :D

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This is, again, taken from my quiet time notebook. I am quite amazed at how God reminds me of things in my life. In this particular day of writing, I was tackling issues in my life that was frustrating me to my wits end. Warning: Medyo cheesy ako kay Lord. Scrap that, cheesy talaga ako kay Lord. :)

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Let’s take this one day at a time. ♥

Issue #1

God revealed to me that my fear stems out from self-dependency.

I’m afraid of not being a good example, saying wrong words, not having an impact, etc., because I’m depending on.. MYSELF.

All the burdens I have are here because I’ve lost sight of what it really means to follow Jesus.

Thank You, Lord! For rebuking me. Thank you for setting me free from all these dears that bring me down. You’ve exposed my heart, how wicked I am! Thank you all the more for the love that you’ve poured out for me; For not condemning me and judging me, but for seeing me with eyes of love. You see me as the princess that is redeemed by Jesus, not the failure that I see myself. 

Now that I know my problem, let’s face the solution: Jesus. I need to learn to depend on you Lord, on every area of my life. No more half-half dependency! The truth is I’m weak, but the more wonderful truth is that YOU are STRONG. And you dwell in me! I’m really thankful, Jesus.

I don’t need to give up. I need to persevere. His promises stand, and so I shall. 

Tomorrow will be another day to be joyful for all the wonderful things that God has done in our lives. 

I am OFFICIALLY letting go of my worries.

I will hope, because my hope is alive. He is breathing, and actively looking out for me. My hope is Jesus, and He will never leave me nor forsake me. 

And ss He does for me… I’m sure He does for you. He loves you. 

…And only God can give you that hope and security. For He is constant in this world, loving you even in your sins, and even in your righteousness. 

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead

-1 Peter 1:3

God is our living hope~! He lives, not just passively there in heaven looking and laughing at our mistakes. He is ALIVE and ACTIVELY looking out for us. :)

That’s why we can have hope that even though tomorrow is another day spent with the same people who irritate us, with the same situations that challenge our character… God is actively looking out for us, making sure that we will be victorious ‘till the end. :)