Before taking my last exam for the sem tomorrow, I am plagued by a summer heartbreak. Ahh, why does it always happen a day before something important has to happen? Maybe because He wants me to toughen up. Maybe I should start doing so.
Heartbreaks are never easy. You are flooded by so many thoughts and so many memories linger. It’s an ache that I can remember.
But it’s okay. I’m thankful that I’m going through this heartbreak. It is in my open, vulnerable, and lowest points that I am able to see God perfectly. Will I depend on Him, if I am healthy, strong, knowledgeable, and feeling perfect? No! But it is here and now that I am blessed to see Him redeem my situations.
Apparently, this kind of situations happen very often to me, lately. Therefore, I thank God for giving me this opportunity of being broken and hurt often, so that I can see and humble myself towards Him often.
”My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” - 2 Corinthians 12:9
I am blessed to be able to testify and proclaim that the verse I just quoted is real, and I can depend on it.
I am wretched and far from being perfect, but I thank you Lord that you redeem your people! Thank you Lord because even though I am in a very dark and low situation in my life, I can hope for a wonderful life with you! Thank you that this is not a permanent thing, but rather, a momentary trial that will yield a fruit of righteousness in me, through you.
I take note that, in all trials, there is a lesson to be learned and taken into context. I am thankful that in this trial, it has been clearly said unto me that I should guard my heart and surrender my passions to Him. As in, ALL and EVERYTHING.
Lastly, I rejoice in this suffering because at the end of the day, I still have God reigning over my life, armed with better wisdom on dealing with relationships. :)