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Everyday with you Lord, is sweeter than day before!  (Listen at the song here) 

Hello! 

It’s so amazing, and wonderful. Remember how emo and reflective I am of my situations the past few days? Well, I’ve been pulled out of that black hole of seemingly endless place of darkness and despair. :) yey!

I don’t really know how and when it all started, but all I know is that I prayed to God about my situation, almost everyday before I sleep. I would cry endlessly and pray for the hurt to be gone. Everyday, after praying, I would weep myself back to sleep. It wasn’t an easy season for me, and I thought I would never overcome. But during this season I learned, that it is not by my strength that I can move on with life and have joy. Moving on can only be achieved when you acknowledge your weakness and inability to do it to God, and when you depend on the strength that He gives you to turn away from the things that are not from Him(i.e. doubts about future, shame from your mistakes, feeling of condemnation, etc.)

I also learned that moving on takes determination. You have to be determined to look at Jesus and not on what slimy pit has entrapped you. Whatever quicksand/slimy pit/black hole is out there pulling you, Jesus is faster and stronger than that and He can instantly pull you through it. I testify that it is true. 

Especially when I realized that there is something missing in my ‘pag-amin’. I realized that I was praying to God about taking all my hurt and pain away, but then again, I still have not forgiven truly the people that caused me this troubles that I am experiencing. God.. revealed to me what’s keeping me from enjoying the life that He has purchased for me. I didn’t have to ‘try harder’ for me to realize that, but it was only because God chose to reveal it to me. God can make things happen, even the ones the I thought would not ever happen. 

So now, I stand, joyful and relieved that God has pulled me out of that season already. Although the season to experience the slimy black hole is finished, I still have some bruises and wounds that I need to be healed with. But it’s nothing! haha, compared to the pain I had before, I’m definitely thankful that I only have these few ones remaining in my life. Rejoice! :D

So, I end with this word, that truly encompasses all the experiences that I had this past season. :) Thank you Lord, you are faithful. :)

To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory. (NLT)

‘and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.’ (NIV)

Isaiah 61:3

While reading this post, you might as well listen to this song I’m listening to.

I’m way too romantic for my age. Sometimes I wonder why I’m so romantic yet at the same time have so high expectations on love. Come to think of it, I’m a purist in love and life. 

Purist, yet romantic. Sigh. 

As you all don’t know, I’m single on purpose(or circumstance, it doesn’t matter). It stings to be single when you are surrounded by an environment that both promotes love and unfaithfulness. Watching movies moves me in an emotional twirl(mababaw luha ko). Especially when I witness true to life movies wherein the hero and heroine has to be separated for a very long time, yet in the end still find their paths to be intertwined with each other. 

Honestly, I want that to happen in my life. Or so I secretly wish. I just want all the hurts and suffering I have been through for love to be justified. Like, it was for a reason for me to learn and to be strong and ready for my most awaited time with him. I want him to know that I have walked this life waiting for him, and that I have looked forward to that day that he will be with me. That my eagerness surpassed all loneliness and anxiety. I want to look at his eyes, feel the comfort of his warmth. Just to live life with him.

But right now, I’m too hurt and too bruised. I’ve had too much experience on love. I’ve been calloused, and sometimes I wish I didn’t have all those memories to go with me. I know too much and I’m too cautious. I don’t want to get hurt anymore! So I ask, will I still have a prince with me by the end?

Yet I am reminded, by the end, I DO HAVE A PRINCE WAITING FOR ME! And he loves me with an everlasting love. He has never left me for someone else, and he loved me even on times that I was unfaithful to him. At the end, he loves me, and I am his. Most importantly, it will be him who has justified me! He justified everything about me, and he did it for me because he loves me. Everything in my past will be healed, and nothing will matter except him. He is worthy of it all.

This is the only comfort I have, that at the end of the day, I am His. Yet more strikingly, He is also mine. There, I have completeness. And today I dare say, I am complete in Him.

Before taking my last exam for the sem tomorrow, I am plagued by a summer heartbreak. Ahh, why does it always happen a day before something important has to happen? Maybe because He wants me to toughen up. Maybe I should start doing so.

Heartbreaks are never easy. You are flooded by so many thoughts and so many memories linger. It’s an ache that I can remember. 

But it’s okay. I’m thankful that I’m going through this heartbreak. It is in my open, vulnerable, and lowest points that I am able to see God perfectly. Will I depend on Him, if I am healthy, strong, knowledgeable, and feeling perfect? No! But it is here and now that I am blessed to see Him redeem my situations.

Apparently, this kind of situations happen very often to me, lately. Therefore, I thank God for giving me this opportunity of being broken and hurt often, so that I can see and humble myself towards Him often. 

 ”My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” - 2 Corinthians 12:9

I am blessed to be able to testify and proclaim that the verse I just quoted is real, and I can depend on it. 

I am wretched and far from being perfect, but I thank you Lord that you redeem your people! Thank you Lord because even though I am in a very dark and low situation in my life, I can hope for a wonderful life with you! Thank you that this is not a permanent thing, but rather, a momentary trial that will yield a fruit of righteousness in me, through you. 

I take note that, in all trials, there is a lesson to be learned and taken into context. I am thankful that in this trial, it has been clearly said unto me that I should guard my heart and surrender my passions to Him. As in, ALL and EVERYTHING. 

Lastly, I rejoice in this suffering because at the end of the day, I still have God reigning over my life, armed with better wisdom on dealing with relationships. :) 

Love stays when all is gone
Love will find a way when there is none.
Love will trust, Love won’t lie, Love gives with no conditions.

This is a silent killer of one’s character and of people’s relationships.

♦ In a heated argument, what makes you go on justifying yourself? PRIDE.

♦ When you’re in fault, what makes it hard to ask for forgiveness? PRIDE.

♦ When others are in fault, what makes it hard to for you to let go and forgive? PRIDE.

In my heart, I have resolved that the relationships I have with my family and friends are more important than pride. For what gain will I have if I keep my pride intact, yet my relationships in chaos? That’s why,

• I will be the first one to say sorry.
• I will forgive easily.
• I will not PRIDE ruin my life.

“For God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble” James 4:6

Are you experiencing the same situation like me? Then talk to me here.

Is your weakness in the area of relationships? ‘Cos honestly, it’s my weakness.  But I’m not just talking about romantic relationships, but more on the platonic kind of relationship. Looking at my credentials, apparently:

I get hurt easily.

I’m sensitive.

I’m hard to understand.

They are hard to understand.

But I kind of figured that it’s not just me who feels this way. A lot of people feel this way, especially people of my age. That’s why when y brother said this verse to me, I was on the verge of tears. I have read this before, but I guess this time it moved me differently. The verse says..

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

1 Peter 4:8

Ahhh, love indeed is powerful enough to cover all the faults of the people around me. More powerful and weighty than any faults that they would do to me. 

I hope this helps you. <3 Good day! 

This is from Pastor Dennis Sy’s blog. I found it so interesting that’s why imma put it here. 

This is for all the guys out there who just don’t know how to do it.

The question: 

How do u reject a girl na constantly pursuing me? It’s clear naman sa kanya na ayoko since were students and were not of same faith. But she keeps texting, calling and saying sweet stuffs. I don’t want to make another girl cry. What should I do?

Answer:

Wow ha!!! First of all thank you for your honesty. I think you have been making a lot of girls cry basing on your question.

If a girl is flirting with you, I think as a man, you need to protect her by telling her that you just want to remain friends and that you don’t see yourself being with her but do this in the most gentlemanly way.

Secondly, be careful how you act. Sometimes kasi we drop hints and also flirt with people who flirts with us. I am not saying you are doing this but be very careful. When she text you, do you text back?? When she calls, do you answer?? When she says sweet stuff, do you entertain it??? Sometimes we fuel the flirtation that happens so make sure not to even give a HINT of liking with the girl. I think this also applies to all the ladies reading this.

Telling a girl he likes her but not defining the relationship because he’s afraid of rejection. -Joseph Bonifacio 

Tsk. Man up! Men are pursuers of women, not herders. They should take the time to think about their feelings and their plans for a woman, before they act! Not haphazardly like most men do today. Nothing speaks more badly about a man’s ability to be responsible than speaking so boldly about his feelings for a woman without acting upon it. 

Women, know your worth. 

XOXO